Juliet's revenge

"Leave...get out..."
The screech echo's after me
and finally these awkward feet
are moving along.
Slowly, my weak legs and
retching gut are exiting,
the now bloody set.

Nose bleeding, arms clawed
I heave my weight into the car.
I sit. I'm a fool.
Thought I'd get away with it.
It meant nothing.
It never meant as much as she did to me
but that screaming banshee
she isn't the woman who loves me

'Oh god', your daunted eyes
your betrayed expression
the hard line of your lips
the sharp edge to your set jaw.
the sobbing, the endless tears,
will haunt me for the rest of my life
I should have known, realised,
you'd guessed. You've been grey faced

barely speaking to me,
staring into space, not lively.
There's been no electric current
in our embraces, they've seemed forced.
You've shoved me away.
I'm whinging again aren't I?
Making this your fault...

I never could take responsibility
for those actions that hurt you.
Oh how I've hurt you this time
beyond repair...
Thump! "What the...?"
Thud! "Hahahaha"
that insane demon that grips
my gorgeous, caring love
is pelting me with bags and belongings.

The things we built our home around
torn from walls, grabbed from cupboards
are falling to the car, scratching paint
breaking glass; all these blows meant for me.
I can hear you again now
the shrieks of pain, the blubbering,
slurring of words-expletives.

Who is this animal ?
Where is my prim and perfect
princess? The mascara's running down
your patchy face. You were never so...
inconsolable, uncontrollable even.
I always knew the right words.
But you see that's where I went wrong isn't it?

I only ever judged you on your beauty.
I did what my father did to
my sweet, gentle, beautiful mother,
to you. I forgot that you were
more than looks, you always have
been intelligent, passionate.
You demanded the best from me.
It was my undoing in the end
I couldn't live up to the pinnacle
of humanity you wanted me to be.

I am only human, I am only male.
"Male scum" as you so rightly remind me.
It seems our trail of thought
is following similar bread crumbs.
I can't believe I let my life go to the dogs
for a bitch like her.
I ended it weeks ago
but she couldn't let go.

See that dog was nothing like you
I had to woo her with baubles
with trinkets, other men
lined up behind her.
Some men warned me she was a witch!
Did I listen? 'Did I hell'
She was so different to you...

Always will be she's,
a whole other breed.
She's not even in your league!
That's what's got me feeling ill
that I hurt you for a bit of tacky,
trashy, tarty, nothingness.
I've treated you like utter crap.

I'm back in the living room,
You're sat on the sofa
as far from the door I'll enter
as you could possibly get.
"Hey honey I'm home now"
I smiled at you, that's when you pressed it
the button that broke everything

The answer machine bursts into life
dictates every little gory detail.
The leering obviously drunk voice
hisses at you "He loves me! Not you!"
and you crumple, the calm, collected,
nonchalant exterior it must have taken
hours to find, dissipates into nothing.
I reach for you and
you seemed to be reaching to me...

Then you hit me, square on the nose.
I was stunned. Now I'm chuckling.
You've still got that mean right hook.
You've not used it in while mind.
For the first time this evening the wetness,
covering my stained shirt isn't red,
tears are trickling away from my black eyes.

I've never received such hatred.
Never seen such evil intent in those eyes.
For a moment I was scared,
scared of the woman I've loved,
for longer than I actually remember.
Because you always remembered the dates.
Made excuses for me, you were considerate.
You were perfect.

The flood gates have opened now.
You've disappeared. Something tells me-
"you won't be seeing her again, you idiot"
I start the ignition, I've got to leave.
Give you a clean break.

Perhaps you'll find someone who deserves you...
I'm turning the corner and
I see you on the balcony
and I read the look in your eye.
It's not difficult, it just says
"Your last mistake, was driving off"
It says, " Romeo can bugger off"
It says, "please I want my life back"
then you shout "...and don't come back"